sinners and saints
Hey hey, hey
She’s a sinner She’s a sinner Sinner She’s a sinner She’s a sight man She’s a bloody scream I start closin’ my eyes She’s in my dreams She’s half a thrill I’m a fallen angel She’ll set up a kill I’m a saint
venting
i’ve come to realize that i piss alot of people off, do i give a fuck? no i couldnt give 2 shits about anything, and im starting to feel that alot of people hate me, now i dont give a shit i mean you can love me or hate me i dont care but when your best friend that you’ve known for years doesnt wanna talk to you anymore says hes got a life and you should get one too that hits a little hard and you lose trust in everybody normally i’d tell him or who ever to go fuck theirself, but somethings changed i’ve changed and i dont know if i like it. normally i’d just forget about it and not dwell in the past i always live for the moment and nothing more i think i’ve lost touch with who i am deep down. and for once i dont like it and im sure others around me dont like it, and i think i have cabin fever and im starting to avoid everybody even my own family and i’ve been trying to find things that will numb the pain but so far it only makes me more hostile than i already am i explained to some one what im going through and what they had to say was you need a girl in your life you need a girlfriend my reply was i do have a girl my one and only love its never let me down and has always been there for me when everything else failed music has been there it truly makes me happy and not alot of things do. but ya know? maybe i do need a girlfriend. i’ve always had an addictive behavior im always looking for the next fix a new high if you will, some of my addictions are, music, writing, going to concerts, my newest addiction photography, the list goes on, the only place i truly feel at home and feel welcome and dont feel out of place or feel alone is at a rock n roll concert thats truly the only place i feel at home anywhere else i feel unwanted or i get looked down upon and theres so much positive energy in the air at a rock concert it just spreads like a wild fire and i just feed off of that. and theres nothing like playing bass for hours and blood pours from your finger tips i always say when that happens im having a good day but its been quite a while sense thats happend. im very dark in the way i see things i see things very differently than most others do. i find beauty in things that most deem ugly or freakish some of the most beautiful things in the world are things most of society looks down on and calls it the dirt of the world they just need to open they’re eyes and look beneath the surface and maybe, just maybe, they might be disgusted with themselves……i think i’ve did enuff rambleing for the day now im gonna rock out to some H.I.M. A7X and Motley Crue!!
